ABC Diet - Starting a 50 Day Journey

So here I am. Let me introduce myself. I'm 26, I have a good career, I'm a workaholic, I'm a bubbly person, I have a great life, and I'm anorexic.

I'm always stuck between recovery and relapse, but keeping myself accountable might make me finally stick to something. Who knows what it'll be. I've suffered from this long enough, I don't need anyone telling me anything or trying to make me think otherwise. I know this is bad for me. I know it is unhealthy. I know people worry about me. This is who I am, and I'm not going to deal with anyone trying to change me.

I've been suffering from anorexia for as long as I can remember. I know I've always grown up as a tall and slender girl, but all I have ever seen is all the fat all over my body. I've resorted to some intense ways of getting the weight off, and this is merely another part of my journey to reach my ultimate goal weight.

Most people in the ana/mia/ednos community (those of us who bond over social media because of our common ground: disordered mindsets on food and eating) have heard of the ABC Diet. This is the abbreviation for the Ana Boot Camp Diet. It is all about restricting. I restrict all the time, so I know it won't be too difficult, but this is my way of testing just how much the ABC Diet will work. I want to know what the results would be, and I am going to be documenting all 50 days in order to best capture the true results.

I am in no way encouraging anyone to do the ABC Diet. I know it is dangerous, and I know it is totally unhealthy. But like I said, I know all these things, but ultimately I care more about being tiny and weightless than I do about anything else.

So the ABC Diet is a 50 Day journey. It has a caloric limit for each day, and that is exactly what I intend to do.

I've done this before, I saw amazing results, but I didn't document it at all and I did not always do exactly as the diet says. So this is where I'll begin. Since it's already quite late in the day, I am going to make tomorrow my starting day to make sure everything is as accurate as possible.

I'll post pictures, videos, whatever I can post over the next 50 days to show how much or how little it is working. Let the journey begin.

**DISCLAIMER**

This particular online journal of mine might be a trigger for some readers (if there are any readers at all). I am in NO WAY trying to promote eating disorders, and if you or someone you know suffers from an eating disorder, get help. There are hotlines and websites everywhere with ways to help someone from falling into the terrible pit that is an eating disorder. Please, do not think there is anything glamorous about an eating disorder, and you can get help. Even if I can't, I would never EVER want to bring anyone down with me.